Un-expectations are Real-2!

To err is human and human I am. But shouldn't I be learning from my own mistakes. But I don't. Why do I keep repeating the same mistake . Why do I end up hurting myself. I have no answer. I wish someone could tell me.

In the last 24 hours, I've been hit in the face twice. Twice have events made me realise that not everything or everyone is worth your time and effort. 

Life changes to give you new joys, new reasons to be happy , new paths of excitement and one thrives on these, not knowing that they may lead you to uncharted territories, where you so desired to go but was forsaken. You don't know what lies ahead, what it beholds for you but you get swayed in the mirth. You revel into the unknown and give your hundred percent to the new commitment ( Commitment may not be the right word here, but I don't know the next best alternative). But slowly you realise, that what you delved into, holds no meaning. You give your hundred percent and get back maybe twenty. Whats in it for you?  I am selfish and I have expectations although I claim to have none. But I want to expect because that makes me happy once it is met. No commitment can work or last with only one side working for it. You cant keep expecting and working towards something with the other side not responding.  The two scales need to be balanced. Nothing anyways is ever meant to last.  But still, there are some who think " Make hay while the sun shines" and why not? As I said, we are selfish and there's nothing wrong in that. But then, why is it that in this game, we end up hurting ourselves when our ultimate aim is to achieve happiness. What an irony!