Seems like a dead end..every road is closed…I feel it’s my fault at the end. ’An idle mind is a devil’s workshop’… But why is it that every expectation is unexpected..can never be fulfilled however meek or fragile it is. Is it too much to ask? I don’t know…I guess it’ll still take a long time for me to understand the different aspects of what they term as ‘human nature’ more so about the people who are so dear to me..or so I suppose. Life is a race , never ending but brings u back to the same point. At one point of time you are trying to run away from someone and at the other someone is trying to run from you. Some things are never meant to be..and things which are , never seem right. Probably I’m too ‘vella’ to think all this or probably this is what that shall lead me to the underpinnings of what is real when all I’m trying to do is wander into the illusory.